February 2012
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#35
I have crippling anxiety that takes over me and makes me irritable towards everyone and it’s slowly consuming me from the inside out. I’m hollow and I roll up into a ball on my bed just to feel like a whole human being.
I know You’re here with me. It’s comforting to know I’m not alone right now, because this feeling is unbearable. Please take my soul from my body for...
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#34
Meh, oh well.
#33
What should I do with my last few minutes of being eighteen years old? I’ve just been kind of sitting around watching the minutes pass. I love being a teenager and I don’t think I can handle even the thought of being an adult. I know it’s all a matter of how you think and being an adult is more of a state of mind than a definitive age, but with the direction I’m taking with...
January 2012
1 post
December 2011
5 posts
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#32
I don’t know how many more of these I’m going to be writing. Not that I think of you any less that I have for the last seven months, but I feel that this is becoming counter productive for me to have to write out how I feel about you so I can recap on a later day, even though I’ve been through this sort of thing too many times before to be able to forget how it feels....
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#31
I wouldn’t have been able to hold myself together these past few days if it weren’t for my music. I have something really irreplaceable in my life and God has blessed me so much with my ability to make something infinite from small moments of my life. I pray with every bit of hope and faith I have in my body that I will be able to keep doing what makes me feel alive, and I don’t...
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#30
I don’t know why it means so much to me, but seeing your name pop put on my phone is something I really look forward to. Even if it’s been a while since the last text, I’m still patiently waiting for the next. I don’t even care if this is a little sad or makes me sound super needy, my day today just turned around completely just because my phone flashed up your name. I miss...
November 2011
1 post
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October 2011
5 posts
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#29
I wish I was stable enough of a person to handle everything I’ve got on my shoulders constructively because quite frankly, I’m in way over my head.
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#28
This is something you really need to understand. Regardless of all the texts left without a response, lack of phone calls, and not being able to see her for weeks, she is still just as crazy about you as you are with her if not more so. Stop worrying so much, everything’s alright. Yea, you say “we pick up the pieces where we leave off last when we’re together” but how is...
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#27
Up until now you’ve been the girl out of my league. Funny how things worked out better than I could’ve ever dreamed. Now, I know that it’s too early to tell how things will go, but even if things don’t work out, I’d still be happy that I was yours for a little while.
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#26
Last night was everything I needed it to be and so much more. I’m happy.
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#25
There was a point where the thing I looked forward to the most was our goodbyes. Every one building on from the one before, starting from a quick hug, then a long embrace, to fighting to let go. You’re so far away from me, babe. Granted, it’s only an hour and a half and 90 miles between us but time and distance no matter the length are still too long and too far. Every goodbye since...
August 2011
3 posts
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#24
From May 15th to right now and from here on, you were/are/will be so much of me. I’m so much happier with the person I am and am becoming because of how much you’ve motivated me to really look at myself and work harder to better myself in every aspect of my life. Not that you really even were really pushing to do so or that you forced me to be. You were my catalyst. It’s funny, I...
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#23
I am only one person, not five hundred. So much expectation. So much frustration. So much anxiety. And I’m doing everything I can to handle it on my own. How am I supposed to pull this off? I guess we’ll just have to see.
I’m praying that everything will work out. That this dream will manifest into something greater than an idea in my head. I need this, I really need this. This...
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#22
This has been the best summer of my life thus far, and I have mostly you to thank. I won’t actually say it because I know how much you hate when I thank you for things, but how could I not be grateful? Literally every day you’ve given me so much to look forward to, whether it’d be spending time with you in person or over the phone or even just your ability to make me see...
July 2011
7 posts
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#21
It’s funny the important things I’ve learned from this girl that I never really thought much about before.
I need to be happy for myself before anyone else, otherwise nothing will be sincere.
It’s okay to feel the way I feel, it’s what makes me who I am. I have nothing to apologize for if it’s something that’s important to me.
I deserve to be happy. I really...
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#20
Do you remember when we would just lay in bed tangled up like the loose threads on your sweater? And we’d spend all our time with your lips close to mine, those butterflies that I’d feel when we’re together.
I can’t wait until I don’t have to sleep alone.
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#19
There’s something really different about crying myself to sleep due to not being able to handle being so happy or being able to grasp that this feeling was even possible. It’s amazing, but something I’m not used to at all. I don’t know what any of this means, but maybe this is something I don’t need to find a meaning for. I’m happy and that’s all there...
June 2011
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#18
My girlfriend is so cute. I just got her graduation party invitation in the mail today and she dotted the I in my name with a little heart. Just little things, you know?
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#17
This past year has made me grow so much as a person, especially the last few months and weeks. It’s scary how you can lose yourself in the life of another, only to find yourself again through someone else. I forgot who I was and I lost sight of where I wanted to be, but it’s funny that a line from a song I wrote was a catalyst for me to find myself again.
“Days like this, they...
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#16
I see so much potential in you. You are an absolutely beautiful human being with so much to give, yet you settle for an unrequited love that will never reciprocate the same generosity as you have so graciously and so willingly given. You deserve to be happy, whether or not you believe it for yourself. You are young and with so much to offer, so much love to give. Why settle for a person who...
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#15
You really hate it when I say this, but thank you. You’ve made me see things about myself that I’ve lost sight of, and it’s just amazing that you were able to do so in such little time. I’m sorry it took four years for us to get to this point, but there were some stops along the way that I needed to see. I needed to get a little lost to find you, and now that I’m...
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#14
Yes, I drove all the way home with Shiksa by Say Anything on repeat after I dropped her off at her house. I don’t care if that’s goofy, I’m damn happy.
“People always think that the most painful thing is losing the one you love in...”
“At some point, you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that...”
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#13
I’m writing this from a McDonald’s lobby in Pensacola, Florida. It’s been hot all day, but I’m feeling pretty chilly considering I’m wearing a tank top and the AC’s turned up in here. We’re in the central time zone and we will be for the rest of the tour, so we’re an hour behind everyone back home in Michigan. Kind of symbolic, really. I feel like...
