#24

From May 15th to right now and from here on, you were/are/will be so much of me. I’m so much happier with the person I am and am becoming because of how much you’ve motivated me to really look at myself and work harder to better myself in every aspect of my life. Not that you really even were really pushing to do so or that you forced me to be. You were my catalyst. It’s funny, I had just gotten so comfortable with you and staying out until sunrise with you and now you’re away at college. Now, I’m adjusting to you not being here. I hope you’re doing okay, I know you’re really worried about everything going on right now but I know everything’s going to be okay. I just wish I could be there to make sure you can fall asleep alright. Remember that one day I drove to your house at 1am and stayed until about 4am even though you still had a lot to do before you went to bed? All we did when I was there was sleep, haha. I just remember you sleeping with me and I knew you had to get some things done and I felt bad for distracting you so I tried to wake you up as much as it sucked to because it was just so nice to have you cuddled up like that. You were half awake and said, “No, I don’t want to wake up. I just want to sleep in your arms.” I knew I couldn’t sleep because I didn’t want to miss a minute of how amazing it felt to just have you there with me, and it didn’t hurt that you snore a little and you tend to twitch yourself awake sometimes, haha.

I had some coke today, I hope you’re not too upset with me about that. I’d rather have some coffee, but I’m near broke so I couldn’t go pick up some Biggby. All I had to eat today was some bologna. Yea, I’ve just been even more of a bum without you, but I’ll get the hang of falling asleep early and waking up at reasonable hours and being productive sometime soon I assume. I start school in two weeks, but I have shows all this week. That should keep me occupied. I hope I can come visit you this weekend, two months and your birthday on Monday.

I’m kind of just rambling because it’s 5:22am now. I’ll end this here. I miss you, but I’ll see you soon. I hope you’re thinking of me as much as I think of you, but not too much that you’re freaking out about things you need to be thinking about haha. Alright, good night girlfriend.